Well I have been pretty down, don't know why really, maybe its the euphoria of thinking I would be starting work on Monday, the light at the end of the tunnel, only for it to be delayed. Until when?, I don't know. Why? I don't know. I have been told it will only be a few days, "cross the T's, dot the I's".
Its easy to say isn't it "cross the T's, dot the I's", sounds good. They don't know I have been down the bank this week, begging them to pay the electricity bill so we don't get cut off, or that my wife is in tears on a daily basis. Should I tell them the children are making lists for a birthday party that's not going to happen. Would they understand that the UK Government has said I am not entitled to Jobseekers Allowance, even though I paid tax in the UK for over 20 years.
No they wouldn't understand, and I wont tell them. At the end of the day I am just a guy looking for a job, a number.
So will this job happen? I hope so, but I now have doubts. Lizzy is crying again. I know we will get out of this somehow but what about our sanity. Giving up, I did think about it, very briefly, but I wont do it. It would be selfish and the family need me, we need each other.
Internet Marketing? sorry its been a hard week and I have nothing to report. There has been an increae in traffic since I added the Amazon bar, but no click on the google ads. I will get out of this and start going again.
Sorry if this has been a depressing post, I am normally a very positive person and will be better next time. If you are in the same boat, my thoughts are with you, keep going.
John
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